WHY WOULD I WANT TO BE SELF RIGHTEOUS?

Self righteousness is an easy state to slip into.  It is a double edged sword that has two dangers.  When a person does away with God, that person will become his or own god and then eventually try to be god to others.  When a person spends so much time trying to be like God, it can slowly develop into a sense of self righteousness.  I have experienced both sides of the sword and neither one is sensible or sustainable.

I am already all that I can be.  God did the initial work at birth and the restoration of that work through His Son’s death on the cross.  I need to keep who I am and whose I am always at the fore front of my thinking.  Then I will relax and simply flow in His fountain of living water, riding the current of the Holy Spirit within me.  It is a beautiful ride and it freely takes me to where I am to be; always in His Presence.  I don’t need to do anything other than obey and become one with the wave and the wind of His Spirit.

Life was designed to go with the flow of energy running through it and around it.  It was not designed to resist that energy or try to manipulate than energy.  Life was designed in perfect balance and harmony and that is the way it works best.  That required some yielding, bending, and bowing on my part.  It is only hampered by resistance and barriers.  Watching nature simply go with the flow provides me with these lessons and I do well to heed them.

It has taken me forty plus years to understand the ramifications of self righteousness, self defense, and self reliance.  They are still easy habits to fall back into.  But I have learned to read the signs of that fall and quickly make the necessary readjustments to my thoughts and actions.  When my heart is overwhelmed I don’t look to my own thoughts on the matter, or my own ways of solving the situation.  My point of view is bias and limited.  I have learned to do as David did.

“Hear my cry, O God, listen to my prayer;

from the end of the earth

I call out to you

when my heart is faint.

Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”

Psalm 61:1, 2

I enjoy a personal and intimate relationship with God but I do not see Him as my equal; nor do I want to.  I want someone watching over me from above, with a higher view and perspective.  I want a God whose thoughts and ways are higher than mine.  I want a God who is full of Glory and Majesty and is sitting on a throne and lifted up; a God who that when I am in His Presence my only response is Holy, Holy, Holy art thou and I am undone, lost, a woman of unclean lips who is made clean and whole only by His grace.

I enjoy a personal and intimate relationship with Jesus as well; but neither do I see him as my equal; nor do I want to.  He gave his life for me so I could enjoy a life with him.  But he is also sitting on that throne as King of Kings and Lord of Lords and it is him I bow to and worship.

I don’t want to resist or rebel; I don’t want to be self defensive or self reliant.  I am glad to serve a personal and loving God who created the world and everything in it, who makes Himself available to me at all times.  This fills me with awe and causes me to bow and to be overcome with love.