AT THIS PLACE IN MY LIFE

A day of extremes.  I continue to watch the excitement of Charles and Dotty as they talk about the movements of God that are occurring all over the world.  It reminds me of the days when I lived in an intentional Christianity Community and everything I did, everything I talked about was All about God.  We were busy for God, building the kingdom of God here on earth, and bringing people into the knowledge of God and the Church.  Tonight I watched the movie, The Theory of Everything, about Steven Hawking’s obsession with figuring out how everything worked without God being in the equation and how excited everyone people were about that.  As I sat here in the quiet of my Morning Time I wondered what God thinks about all of that.

I am at a place in my life where I live a much quieter life, not running around doing this and that for God or the church.  I truly believe that God is The Theory of Everything, so I have stopped searching for this and that theory or teacher.  I don’t feel the need to prove anything to anyone; nor do I have the desire to.  It’s not as though I have answered all the questions of life; it’s just that life got centered and simple for me and I don’t need to search anymore.  I enjoy living in the mystery of it all and don’t want to know the various solutions that people feel the need to come up with.

There is something delightful in living and simply Being that makes me feel content and peaceful.  I have learned to avoid things that disquiet me.  God did a great job creating the heavens and the earth in the beginning.  Whatever He is doing in the world today I am sure He will do it equally as well.  The busyness I feel now is to be centered and focused in prayer, to hear God’s voice and to respond as He desires me to respond. This suits me.

The thought that God need’s man’s help seems equally as absurd as man trying to prove that everything, including him, came into existence without God.  God is God and in all likelihood doesn’t appreciate human help, especially when it becomes more of a hindrance to what He is doing.

As for me, I simple love Him and thoroughly enjoy His companionship and communion with me.  It’s not about being productive; it’s about being Present.  It’s not about being useful; it’s about the US-ness that I live in every moment of every day.